Because I never thought you’d come back
I vowed to offer the love we’d made
To the whole of the world. It was, at first,
A perfect act; not sacrifice, not heart transplant,
But a gift from me to you, sun shaped –
That distant, careful lover whose grasping reach
Can never hold us the way we were meant
To be held, forever yet never touching. I offered it
Freely, practiced loving-kindness
On a troublesome path,
And sure enough, I found you sitting there –
Your eyes, stars from a brother universe.
Ode & Elegy
for Brian
