Unplanned at my age,
unwanted by the world.
Not a part of me, the whole of me.
Deformed, not perfect,
but cherished, treasured,
by me alone.

Breach birth,
difficult extraction,
a labour of pain
with no tears of joy,
an absence of hope,
no future plans.

A miscarriage of justice.
Curled up safe inside me,
pure and innocent,
protected from life’s trials
until I birthed you.
My fault alone.

You lie exposed and unmoving,
your cry never heard.

My pride and joy.
my poems,
my rejection slips,
my words stillborn.

Ivanka Fear

Ivanka Fear is a Slovenian born writer and former teacher residing in Ontario, Canada. She holds a B.A. and B.Ed. from Western University. Her work appears in Spadina Literary Review, Montreal Writes, Commuterlit, Adelaide Literary, October Hill, Scarlet Leaf Review, Polar Borealis, Lighten Up, Bewildering Stories, The Sirens Call, Utopia Science Fiction, The Literary Hatchet, Aphelion, Sad Girl Review, Tales from the Moonlit Path, Muddy River Poetry Review, Understorey, Analogies and Allegories, Autumn House Review, The Dead Fern, The Mark Literary Review, and elsewhere. You can read more about her on her website.